Yea now its working .

I don't understand . Ugh! I hella posted shit last nite and nothing . Sadness .
But anyway, TGIT !! Off tomorrow . So hopefully I see besfren tonite . Tomorrow no plans, so maybe it'll turn into a true blood marathon ! Woohoo ! Haha . Freakin love that show ! I'm addicted !
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Emailing is not workinggg !!

Ahhhhhh !
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WORK SUCCKKKSSS .

so im really gettin sick and tired of my job . i mean, its a good paying job, im very happy financially rite now, im doin good . bills are paid and i get to have a good time when i have it, but thats da problem . the time is da problem . i really dont have much time for myself nowadays with this job . ive realized it over and over again for the past 2 years ive been workin here . i dont get to do as much as i want to . im there 10-11 hours a day, so pretty much im there from morning til night . night as in, everythin is closed, and theres not much i can do . i dont have much time to see my family, who i see once a week now or sometimes every two weeks . i see my friends for a couple hours here and there . i still have 2 days off a week, but this past weekend, i definitely realized that those 2 days is not enough . i happened to go out friday night with momie arlene, got home around wat almost 4am and i was so exhausted from working all day and bein out all nite that i happened to sleep half of my day off away and the other half went by so damn quickly that i didnt even get to do much . its really gettin too depressing . people tend to lose their minds with things like this, and i believe im starting to now. one of my close friends that i used to work with, mikey, he quit because of the same reason , but he was doing this way more years than i am, but i think im reachin that level where i need to call it quits . but at the same time, i cant quit . so here what im gonna do . i think ima drop out of management, and tell em i cant work full time anymore . maybe have another day off . thats really all i need . and plus, being a team leader at this job, doesnt really give me anything more than the rest but a few more dollars so all in all, its not worth it . so thats what im gonna do . i need to do this . to make it better for myself and my life . i used to like going out and roam the streets by myself, go out partying with my friends, and dancing . i miss dancing . it was my passion and inside, its still is . i miss it terribly . so i need to do this . gonna wait a couple more weeks so i can save up and get ready . but i cant wait anymore .

then after i do this, i have more time to look for another job all in all . .

My new favorite show !

This show is da shit !
Thanks to kenneth for gettin me into dis show . Haha .
Love it !
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Gulayy !

Sittin in the path in front of me . Lolz
Dope shoes . Sexy lip ring ! Whhaaattt ?! And he's like latino or black . Sexxaayy !

But off to work . I fcukin hate sundaysss !!
Gonna be a longgg day ! Kill me now !
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jus a new video i made today .

got bored and havent made a new

video in a while so heres a new one !

Another hot date ! Haha

What a long friday, but it was another good one . After a long, hard, busy day at work, I ended the nite with one of my closest friend . Went out for a movie, watched Legion, which was pretty good. Not great, but it was worth to watch . Then had an awesome dinner at Cafeteria . I love that place ! Best place to go to for a late late dinner . Haha . Looking at the time I wrote this, you'll know how late our dinner was . But to Momie, my hot date, had another great date with u . Thanks for the great time . Haha . Glad we still stayin close and doing this with all the things that are going on with both our lives . And also, ur so sexxxayyy ! Haha .
Kk time for bed . I am exhausted !
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99 !!!

I have 99, yes counted, 99 of the lil ones and it makes me wanna jus lay em out and look at em and baby it . I don't wanna give it away ! Hahah . Ahhh ! Cuhrazy nite . In da streets of newark waitin for the pass . Whew . Made it out . And half of da shit I got aint even for me ! Wtf ! But good shit yo .

I'm set !
I'm ready to flyyyy !!
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Haven't blogged in a minuteee !!

But I missed this ! Haha .
And I soooo want an IPAD !!
Soo gonna get one !
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never been this scared in my life .

i got a fone call today at 10:43am . i was still enjoyin sleep since i had off i thought i could have some extra sleep and then naturally wake up and enjoy the day with the fam . but i get that fone call, i looked at my fone and caller i.d says its my sister . thought about it for a second, then thought maybe the fam wanna do somethin extra special that we would head out earlier than usual, so i answered . it was my crying sister, michele . she tells me to wake up cuz we gotta take my mom to the hospital . eyes popped open and asked what da hell is goin on . she rambled some of her medical mumbo jumbo that i couldnt understand, but i heard "her heart" and "doctor said to take her in" . so i hung up, jumped out of bed and ran upstairs still worried bout what da hell is goin on . caught my mom in the living room, scared look in her eyes and asked what was goin on . she said her doctor found something wrong with her heart again and that she has to go to the hospital . she went up to her room to get ready . then heard my sister comin up from downstairs, met up in the kitchen and saw she was still crying . this time i was really confused cuz i saw my mom looked fine, but my sister was hysterical . then she told me what happened after she caught her breath . my mom has had abnormalities in her heart that she's been working on for a couple years now and thought her medications has been helping . she's been feeling fine but lately she's been catchin herself out of breath and having difficulties breathing . thats da main reason she went to get a check up . then finding out that her heart is back to being abnormal . older sister arrived along with my neice and brother in law . talking in the kitchen, hearing whats been goin on and askin how could this happen and finally nervousness kicked in . dad comes down with a bag of my moms extra clothes made it worse . she has to STAY in the hospital . i felt like shit . dad started complaining to us . thats what he does when he gets worried . but he just doesnt complain, he starts crying . so i take it back, THAT made it worse . i was now scared . scared of whats going on . scared of what can happen, just scared . its my mom . i dont know what i would do . . . cant write like this .
but we took her to the hospital . she had one test done, and doctor said its nothing serious . nothing that medication cannot fix . weight off the shoulders . da sun came out . BUT he said she has to go through some more tests to make sure . we brought her to her room, she went through numerous needles that sucked her blood out of her body . seein her face clench tight from the pain, made me wanna hit the doctors and nurses in their faces but it had to be done . ive never seen my mom in this situation before . seein her in pain . seein her scared of her life . made me wish i was never around .
we had to leave, mom stayed behind . we have to wait til morning for the results . im praying to god to please give us results we wanna hear . she needs to be home . im gonna sleep so i can make the morning come faster and to bring my mama home .
i miss u ma . i love u .